Psalm 1 speaks of the 'scoffers.' The skeptics, and relativists, who make it a profession, and a life mission, to plant the seed of absolute doubt into the hearts and minds of all people. And then there are those, through honest human weakness, who pray with all their heart, mind, and soul, 'Lord I believe. Help my unbelief.'
Stuck in the middle are countless human persons who are 'like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed about by the wind.'
Their doubt is the prize which is fought for in all of the world's spiritual warfare. For God seeks for the faithful doubter, while the devil, and his demons, seek for the despair of worldly doubt.
Which side will you choose? Which doubt will you base your battle plan upon?
"Consider it all joy, my brothers and sisters, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance." James 1:1-11
If you doubt that you doubt, I doubt that you are being honest with yourself!
Doubt hits all of God's all-stars, and all of God's heretics, blasphemers, and rebels. It isn't a matter of those who doubt and those who don't; rather, it's what you do when doubt hits! St. Peter and Judas were both struck with the trial of doubt. Peter repented after denying Christ three times, and was rewarded with a three times endorsed papacy, and the dignity of being crucified upside down.
Peter is a saint, and forever the Rock.
Judas, however, after betraying our Lord for a paltry 30 pieces of silver, rejected the Holy Spirit's inclinations for repentance and hung himself, in effect, barring himself from the forgiveness of God. God only knows where he is now.
Therefore, a spark of faith embraced in the dry stubble of doubt sets afire mature discipleship.
"The law of your mouth is to me more precious than thousands of gold and silver pieces." Psalm 119:67-68, 71-72, 75-76
But why are we afflicted with doubt? Because we are imperfect humans, afflicted with original sin. And why does God allow this to happen? So that we may grow in the strength of faith to persevere through all things for the glory of God, and the salvation of many a soul. But this can only happen when we realize who is God, and what is truly good. This is why trials, such as trials of doubt, afflict us for our own benefit. For when we doubt, and the gods of the world, and the gold of the earth, fails to deliver us from evil, faith and Wisdom point to the God of Divine Mercy and the riches of His grace.
Doubt which is overcome in persevering faith, delivers the gold of sanctifying grace.
"The Pharisees came forward and began to argue with Jesus, seeking from him a sign from heaven to test him. He sighed from the depth of his spirit and said, 'Why does this generation seek a sign?'" Mark 8:11-13
The heavenly graced doubt of the faithful disciple seeks for Christ on His terms: in His gospel, in His Real Presence in the Eucharist, in prayer and sacrament, in the poor, in the true meaning of suffering, and in self-giving Love.
And the signs of Him are abundant!
Yet, those with worldly doubt, those who make their living ($) from doubt and despair, and those who follow them like blind and dumb cattle, never see the Christ in Word, Eucharist, prayer, suffering, poverty, or charity.
And they moan for a sign which never comes...unless they repent.
For faith is the reward of honest doubt, which seeks. So, let's lead all people through honest doubt. God will do the rest!