Skip to main content
  1. News
  2. Top News

Teen suspects left notes: ‘I wish I were never born’ ends teen suspect’s note

See also

Teen suspects left notes for their family members and reading the shocking last words written by Brandon Goode and Alexandria Hollinghurst provides an insight into the lives of the two teen suspects accused of having gunned down 31-year-old police officer Robert German. According to a March 25 Metro report, the suicide notes left behind by the teen suspects are filled with pain, anger, and the striking words – “I wish I were never born,” are the 17-year-old girl's final words.

Early Saturday morning around 3 a.m., police Officer Robert German was on foot patrol in an Orlando suburb when he came across two teens who had been reported missing on Friday. Even though German called for support, by the time backup arrived, he was found lying on the ground with a gunshot wound to the head. Not far from him, the two teens’ lifeless bodies were found under brush. On Tuesday, the Orange County Sheriff's Office revealed that the body camera worn by German was turned off when he met the teens -- leaving the specifics of what actually happened a mystery.

The family of 17-year-old Alexandria believes that after shooting the officer, Brandon shot the girl, and then himself.

On Wednesday, 18-year-old Brandon Goode’s parents released a statement saying that they could not comprehend the senseless loss of Officer German.

“We are heartbroken and overwhelmed with grief. We cannot comprehend the senseless loss of Officer German’s life, the death of Alexandria Hollinghurst and for our family, the loss of our 18 year old son, Brandon. Words do not exist to express the measure of our sorrow and sadness. Our deepest sympathy and our heartfelt prayers go out to the friends and family of Officer German. We are so, so sorry to them for what happened and they will be forever in our prayers. We know a community grieves and like everyone else in our community, we ourselves are struggling to understand this most horrific tragedy. We have no answers, only questions. Whether mental illness, substance abuse or something else, we are a family searching. We choose and wish to cooperate openly and fully with law enforcement as they mourn the loss of their fallen brother and search for answers that we don’t have. We must now ask for privacy. The pain we are each experiencing is unimaginable. There is a young step brother and step sister that desperately need solitude and love. We ask that you respect this situation and understand that they are innocent and too many have been hurt already. We humbly and prayerfully ask that we be allowed to grieve privately as we continue our own very painful journey towards understanding. As such there will be no more public statements.”

Two days before the shooting, the two teen suspects Brandon Goode and Alexandria Hollinghurst had run away from home and left behind letters for their families to find.

Brandon Goode, who had been arrested earlier in the year for possessing alcohol while underage and possession of marijuana and had been arrested in 2012 for an aggravated assault on his mother according to a West Palm Beach report, had written the following words in hand-written and neat letters:

"To my loving parents, I am sorry for all the pain and misery I have brought you both, not just now but from these past few years as well. I don't want to go through life knowing because of my mistakes that I amounted to nothing and was there fore (sic) a disappointment. Don't take that as me putting the blame on you because that is the furthest thing from the truth. Both of you have been so amazing with your constant help and support through my life. I love you with all my heart. Please don't be sad, this is what I want now, I get to die peacefully with the woman I love, the woman of my dreams, my fiancé (yes we were engaged!). I miss you both so much already."

Alexandria Hollinghurst, who had moved to Florida with her family from Manchester about six years ago, had moved in with Brandon after her parents objected to her boyfriend’s “druggie” lifestyle. Last month, she had been arrested with Brandon after they were found with marijuana.

The 17-year-old had left behind three notes. One to her mother Debra, one for her father Tom, and one for her sister. The teen's notes were written just hours before she and Brandon reportedly killed officer German and then turned the gun on themselves.

In the letter to her father, Alexandria wrote, "Dad, I’m sorry I continue to dissapoint (sic) you. I’m sorry I’ve changed. I wish we could rewind. I love you to death but I just couldn’t do it any more. Every day became harder and harder.”

To her 12-year-old sister, she wrote, “I need you to know that you’ve always been my favorite, my number one. You’re so much younger, but you’re a better person than me, you always have been.”

To her mother, Alexandria wrote the following last words:

“I could write to you for days, but I know nothing would actually make a difference to you. You are much too ignorant and self-concerned to even attempt to listen or understand, everyone knows that. If I had stayed another minute I would have painted the walls and stained the carpets with my blood, so you could clean it up. I wish I were never born.”

Advertisement

Related Videos:

  • Alien probes have reached Earth? Mathematicians say it is certainly possible
    <div class="video-info" data-id="517865563" data-param-name="playList" data-provider="5min" data-url="http://pshared.5min.com/Scripts/PlayerSeed.js?sid=1304&width=480&height=401&playList=517865563&autoStart=true"></div>
  • Study: Women at higher risk for depression
    <div class="video-info" data-id="518277204" data-param-name="playList" data-provider="5min" data-url="http://pshared.5min.com/Scripts/PlayerSeed.js?sid=1304&width=480&height=401&playList=518277204&autoStart=true"></div>
  • Study: Women open to Internet-based counseling
    <div class="video-info" data-id="518151917" data-param-name="playList" data-provider="5min" data-url="http://pshared.5min.com/Scripts/PlayerSeed.js?sid=1304&width=480&height=401&playList=518151917&autoStart=true"></div>