I meet Catholic men who swear to a miracle healing. I read of Catholic women who praise God for multiple miraculous saving events in times of distress. Then I experience, and witness, those of us who hang on the Cross and die.
"Lo, I am about to create new heavens
and a new earth;
The things of the past shall not be remembered
or come to mind.
Instead, there shall always be rejoicing and happiness
in what I create..." Isaiah 65:17-21
Considering that life isn't always fair, and that not every word that comes from the human person's mouth is truthful, consideration must also be given to the fact that some of us might need a little more time on the Cross. John or Jane Doe might very well be ready for God's grace, since they have already spent their time on the Cross, letting go of the lust and vice in their lives. Maybe God has prepared them for better things, Risen realities, because they have died with Christ, therefore becoming ripe for the Rise, fruit of the Cross.
Maybe, in holding onto my favorite sins, I am not ready for this just yet.
“Hear, O LORD, and have pity on me;
O LORD, be my helper.”
You changed my mourning into dancing;
O LORD, my God, forever will I give you thanks." Psalm 30:2, 4-6, 11-13
Maybe, just maybe, hindsight will prove out God's Love for me in my seemingly silent Crucifixion. Maybe, just maybe, answered prayers in my sinful state might have damned me in my spiritual immaturity.
Maybe, just maybe.
"Unless you people see signs and wonders, you will not believe.” John 4:43-54
Maybe all my prayers are being answered in this Cross that I hang upon.