I find that procrastination has shown up lately in my life. I put off doing things only to discover the reason for my stalling was indecisiveness and resistance. It took some quiet time to figure it all out. I found I couldn't or wouldn't make a decision because it was no longer in alignment with what I believed to be true for me. I didn't know at the time that was the reason for my wishy washy ways.
I am a Libra so weighing in on both sides has gotten me into trouble many times, especially when in the end, I reply, it doesn't matter to me. Trying to just go with the flow has ended in heated discussions on this very subject. Just make up my mind already! But what if you really don't care where you eat dinner tonight? or It doesn't matter what you want to do today? I say as long as I am doing it with you; that is what matters.
Don't get me wrong, if I absolutely do not want to go somewhere or do something in particular, I will speak up. But if I have no preference, what is wrong with saying "I don't care"? Some take it personally, as if I am not engaging in the conversation. I am not saying I don't care about you, or I don't care if we ever do anything together again.
What moves a person forward in deciding if something is in alignment with their goals? This question can be asked about your work, health, financial or even spiritual path. When you find that you are procrastinating, stop and think about it. Why are you meeting this particular thing with resistance.
Steven Pressfield in The War of Art declares resistance only opposes one way: UP. Hmm, think about that statement for a moment. We don't face resistance when we hang out with our friends. We don't face resistance when we have to do something we love. We face resistance when we want to push beyond our limits. We face resistance when we feel we have something to lose.
Think about a time when you wanted to do something differently. You wanted to pursue a hobby like writing or painting or you wanted to lose weight. How many times did you try it before you succeeded? How many times did you give up because those little voices in your head said you couldn't do it. Those little voices said something like, what were you thinking?
Steven Pressfield also states that resistance rises up at the finish line. That is resistance at it's finest, putting a halt on your plans and trying to steer you off course. You are almost there and then boom, you hit the wall. What do you do? You push through your fears, shut off the speaker to those little voices and plow through to completion.
Have you ever felt that your family and friends didn't support you in your quest? Resistance recruits allies according to Steven Pressfield. Think of a time when you wanted to lose weight. You were doing good not great but good and then your spouse or friends want you to go out to dinner. Just this one time. Or they tell you, come on, its not going to hurt you to come out drinking or or or. You are again faced with resistance.
The quote I love most is "Resistance is infallible. It always steers <------ ETISOPPO of your souls true calling." Steven Pressfield
The next time you want to do it differently, try something new, but just remember; resistance is INTERNAL.