As all animal lovers that have lost a pet know, getting over the grief can be difficult. Some people may think it's crazy but I've spent almost as much time crying over deceased pets then my human family that have passed. I'm no stranger to grief. In the last few years I've lost a brother, mother, and just recently my father. As devastating as it was I dealt with it because I had other people who were going through the same thing. Another human who felt the loss as much as I did but no one could share the heartbreak of losing my best friend who happens to be a dog. Last October when I had to have my poodle Teddy euthanized due to his illness I was emotionally drained and heartbroken. I spent three days in bed, I couldn't eat or leave the house. Nothing could console me. I would look over at the empty space where his bed was. I just couldn't deal with the fact he was gone. I knew in my heart it was the best thing for him but selfishly I wanted him back. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. Teddy was a rescue dog. He was found by a Pasco County Sheriff wandering the streets of Port Richey Fl. so matted you would never know what breed he was. The story was he had been in the neighborhood for sometime. A friend intercepted him before he was sent too Pasco Animal Care and I wanted him as soon as I set eyes on him. For weeks I watched the lost section of the paper and called all the shelters in the area. Not a soul was looking for him. After a month I stopped the search. He was mine. Teddy was a joy to have and for nine years he was at my husband's side and mine. He went for hikes in the woods, rides on our boat, and took numerous trips up and down the east coast from Pasco county too New England. He loved traveling and staying at motels. He would always claim the bed closest to the door. The next morning he would be anxious to hit the road again. It's been ten months and I still look at the place where he would sleep in his cozy little bed. My eyes well up with tears and I ask myself if it will ever get better ? We have a new best friend now. His name is Sammy, also a rescue dog. He's a good fit in our family and gets along with our three cats. We love him to death and he's not just a best friend but a family member just as Teddy was. He will be with us for a long time I hope. Teddy will be forever in my heart.
August 17, 2013