On the eve of my 43rd birthday, I ponder the previous years as many might: gratitude, wonder, accomplishment and relief… As my new year dawns, I look upon the moments I have yet to spend, with consciousness, hope and wonder.
In my life there are choices I have made that are not a reflection of the person I wish to be. There are disempowering thoughts, words and actions I’ve thought better of upon committing them, and those I am certain I do not yet fully understand. And yet, I know I am working to make my life better, a stronger reflection of integrity, connection, awareness and accountability.
This physical life is so important. It is the single opportunity to experience the physical world in an “interactive” form; to learn about and master this physical world; to know All That Is, is entwined, is Goddess & God in their perfection.
I am not perfect, and yet I am a perfect being. I am not wise, and yet I have the knowledge of all the Masters accessible to me at any moment.
The fact that I cast a shadow, illuminates these two things, yet masks them in the recesses of the subconscious at the same time. Will I choose to live in the shadows or will I choose to live awake?
It takes a concerted effort each day to walk on the illuminated path. The shadows are sometimes so thick that they nearly obliterate the shimmering of the Light. And yet the Light is there.
My heart is filled with the promise of Christ, “All I have done, ye shall do, and more.”
Through my failings and floundering, the Light glows deep within me. I am born of Light. It is my lineage and responsibility. Each day I remain in this physical world, I have the opportunity and duty to radiate that light, to do that which Christ would have me do.
While my physical days tick by, no, race by, it is up to me how I choose to live them. I am guided by Light and accountable to Light for my choices. At the end of the day, can I look myself in the eyes and know that I have done my best to serve and honor my lineage? Can I be in Faith while holding myself accountable for that which I create in this life?
And I must allow myself to grow as I embrace life and the riches it has to offer!