For those who believe homosexuality is a choice, actress Portia de Rossi provides evidence that it is not a choice as she reveals her struggle with being a lesbian and coming out. The 40-year-old actress who is happily married to Ellen DeGeneres came out publicly in 2005 and as Pink News reports on November 1, de Rossi admits that she always thought that being gay was ‘strange’.
In an interview on “The Conversation with Amanda De Cadenet”, the “Arrested Development” star reveals that she “didn’t want to be a lesbian”. She struggled because of what she felt gay was and also because she didn’t know any other women who were openly lesbians, especially in Hollywood.
“I’d never met one for a start and I just thought they were strange and that they hated men and they were very serious and I had these ridiculous images in my head and there were no out celebrities or politicians or anybody that I could look to and go, ‘Oh, I could be like that’.”
Now Portia de Rossi is one of those women others who may be in her shoes can look towards for inspiration and guidance. Her public marriage to DeGeneres and the support she has received is something she would’ve never thought could happen back when she starred in “Ally McBeal” from 1998 to 2002.
The actress felt not coming out back then led to emotional problems that affected her physically as she battled different eating disorders which she believes were symptoms of her hiding her sexuality.
“The thing that kept me company was my eating disorder. It was like a lover, it was like somebody who never ever left me. Like a thought that would always keep me excited, interested and focused. It’s adrenaline.”
In other words, her loneliness needed a companion.
Portia de Rossi married Ellen DeGeneres in 2008.