I want the Christmas Spirit. I want Peace on Earth. I want good will towards men. I want all those feelings I had about Christmas when I was a kid. Life......takes its toll. After awhile the Christmas Spirit just seems like childish fairy tales. Time goes by, we hurt and get hurt. Hopefully, we heal and learn how to forgive. In the fullness of time our lives come full circle and we endeavor to restore the goodness we knew as children. We ask for forgiveness. We place ourselves into a circle of good feelings so others can feel better too.
This is what I want. For everyone.
And so....mea culpa. I ask the world and the universe for forgiveness. I guess I've made just about every mistake a human being can make in this life. I've made a mess of relationships around me. I've pushed away those I loved most. I made war on myself and thus everyone near me with my rage. I tried to love but I suppose for much of my life I didn't know how. I am so very sorry for all the bad I did, I caused, and I allowed. I was so busy worrying about the world and how to save it, I polluted my own little world with a disaster of wrong action, wrong words, and misplaced sentiments. I wish you knew how sorry I am. I wish you knew how much love I have for you, whom I have wronged. I'm sorry it took me so much longer to arrive at this point than it should have. I think the war zone that was my life in my childhood just got me pointed in the wrong direction, but I make no excuses. I should have known better. I have for some time now tried to make amends. I will continue to. Because I think no matter how many sacrifices we make for the People, it is at home that Peace and happiness really begins.
This is me, being human, and trying to make the Christmas Spirit, Peace on Earth, and Good Will towards everyone. These things are not just words. They are the highest aspirations that sustain us, as much as water and air.