Mothers check your engines! As the day approaches for soon to be empty-nesters, this great journey will be faced by many. It is both a time of sadness, as we are forced to let go of an era, and a time of joy. We now have time to reconnect with our spouse or partner, but most importantly we have a time to reconnect with ourselves. When we hear the expression "check your engine" before a car race, it is that last chance to make sure all is running well with the car before that great race, that trip, or that journey. So, as I pack, prepare, and panic over this upcoming move to Costa Rica, I remember my checklist. These last few days I made an effort to see my doctor, dentist, pharmacist, and pedicurist. Okay, so that last one wasn't a necessity, but who travels to the tropics without a pedicure?
Costa Rica offers good quality socialized medical care for a reasonable price, but in the end, it is a socialized system, which means there will be a wait, and the medications I require might not be in good supply. Therefore it doesn't hurt to pack a couple of months of my lifeline, because I am diabetic.
A lot of reflection is going through my mind. I go back and forth about leaving my family to find my own path after being a mother for 32 years. I'm certain lots of mothers feel the same way when they drop off their youngest at college, or wave good-bye to the last of the clan to move out. The truth is I will always be a mother. I love them beyond words. They say once a woman is mother, her heart is forever roaming the world outside of her body. She only prays that the world treat it as she had before it left her body. My kids no longer depend on me, and I must release them to their own paths and use this time to make a life for me. My husband has been especially attentive to detail these last few days and worried about my devotion or commitment to our relationship. When a person sets on a quest to find herself, there are no guarantees.
Maybe the "Deluxe Hot Stone Pedicure" I indulged in was a metaphor for how I have been feeling. It is common for people to get "cold feet" before a major change in their lives. But if one is going to be a catalyst for change, one must hold firm. I am a firm believer in the Mahatma Gandhi 's quote: "Be the change you want to see in the world.".
It is obvious that I will miss our community here in San Bernardino, Victoria Gardens, etc. Specially the ease in which we Americans can find just about anything we need at the nearest mall or shopping center, which usually is within 5 to 10 minutes of our home. How easy we have it, yet we frequently forget gratitude for these gifts.
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