NASHVILLE, Tenn., February 18, 2013 - Country singer Mindy McCready, 37, came to a tragic end yesterday, Feb. 17, when she was found dead in her home from a self-inflicted gunshot wound. Since then, personal friend and private investigator Danno Hanks has come forward with what appears to be a video suicide note that McCready herself put together just days before her passing.
"I'll See You Yesterday," a song written by Courtney Dashe and Jason Walker and produced by David Wilson (who committed suicide late last month), is featured in the musical piece. The tender ballad is haunting, in retrospect, as it showcases the late singer pleading over lost memories and forgotten time. “Let’s get lost in our memories. That’s the safest place we can be. If this is the end of our story, I don’t wanna read it,” she sweetly sings. “I was your sunlight. Now, I’m just a shade. I was your blue sky. Now, I’m just the rain. I was your favorite song. Now, I’m overplayed. If tomorrow’s gonna be the same, I’ll see you yesterday.”
“My cowriter, Jason Walker, and I never intended it to be a suicide, or even a death song, but music has a life of it’s own,” Dashe tells Taste of Country. “I’d liked to think it helped Mindy cope with some things in her life, but wish it could have prevented things from ending the way they did.”
The video clip also features a suicide hotline frame that comes at the song's end, which she sent to Hanks a day before her death. "She said she wanted to put together this video to help people deal when someone had suffered a suicide in their life and God, she was literally having me write her suicide note," Hanks laments to E! News. "If I had known, I would have made sure someone was there with her all the time. I thought she was talking about sending a message about suicide for David's death but this is unbelievable. She was sending me a message. I wish I had been more alert to what it was."
He continues, "She told me about this new song she was excited about called 'I'll See You Yesterday.' Normally she would write her own songs, but a fan of hers had given it to her and asked if she would like to record it. She gave me a copy of it and it really looked like things were on the upswing for her."
In hindsight, Hanks recalls an even stranger request from McCready. "The strange thing about it in hind sight, looking back she is feeding me this stuff for the video she said, 'I have someone working on getting all the rights in place it will be licensed for Courtney to get the royalties,' and I was like, 'Hey what is the big deal?' But now I understand she wanted to make sure it got out there and there was no copyright problems for it being up there."
"Everybody wants to reach out after the fact but nobody wants to be there when it is happening," he says. "I just didn't think she would do this. She had two kids to live for," he said. "I still can't fathom the whole thing."
McCready's last full length album, I'm Still Here came in 2010. She is most known for her debut album, Ten Thousand Angels, released in 1996.
Take a listen to the unreleased song to the left.