How do I describe it? No, how do I make you feel it? I need you to feel it. For your teeth to be chattering, for you to be letting out a sound that identically resembles the sounds that people used to make fun of autistic kids for in elementary; and for the lights to go out from the bottom up until you have no control, as if you are a soul inside a body not your own, and someone else is dragging the body to the floor. It’s not your body anymore. But you are trapped deep within there, and you can feel the invisible by standers who stand back in fear. You cannot keep it together physically, you are no longer connected with your physical body; but you can control your mental state if you focus. It is challenging to focus when their eyes are burning through you as you flop around like a fish on dry land though. Once it is over you slowly open your eyes, in the same way you slowly lifted up the bed skirt to check for monsters when you were a child. Maybe if you take long enough to open your eyes they will leave. But they do not. They stare at you as if you are an alien, without even the tiniest amount of empathy or compassion in their eyes. It happens too often, it happens all the time.
You have no clue what they really looked like; your vision is still blurred. Bulging eyes are so violating though, you had no choice but to acknowledge them. Gone. They watched you suffer and now they are gone. Like a sick form of entertainment, enjoying a human in pain. Enjoying two humans in pain actually. Your mom is by your side, wiping the sweat off your head and hugging you. You feel awful, not for yourself but for her. She had to witness the entire horror show. Her kid, squirming around like a snake for an audience, who not a single person stepped forward from. Shaking your head, you both laugh. You are used to this routine. You just had a seizure. You always do.
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Use of cannabis to successfully treat seizures dates back to ancient times, long before capsules filled with man-made chemicals stole the spotlight and criminalized marijuana’s use. This scenario would be logical if cannabis failed to treat seizures, and if pharmaceuticals were more successful at doing so –but logic and reality cease to line up all too often in the world we live in. The truth is, finding a prescription that truly controls out of control seizure activity is, for many people, not plausible. More disturbing is that present day seizure medicines come equipped not only with a laundry list full of negative side effects, but with intense withdrawal symptoms as well –including increased seizure activity, the very thing they are prescribed to “stop.”
So why deny suffering individuals the right to use medicine that will possibly offer more relief than prescription drugs? Especially when it is a natural substance? Well, because of the mind altering effects of marijuana, claims the pharmaceutical companies. If that is truly the reason behind it all, then they better go ahead and pull their own seizure medicines off the shelf; because their expressed concern would be more believable if the prescription pills used to treat seizures did not alter the mind as well.
There are two general groups of seizures: Epileptic seizures (consisting of numerous sub-types), which cause an abnormal burst of electrical impulses to go to the brain; and then there are pseudo seizures, which are seizures caused by too much stress on the brain. Pseudo seizures are sometimes associated with a neurological disease that is putting the patient’s brain in distress. Of the many compounds found in cannabis, CBD, is one whose effects directly benefit individuals suffering from epileptic seizure activity. CBD is a relaxant, a natural anticonvulsant if you will. CBD also directly helps control pseudo seizures since it naturally relaxes the brain, thereby solving the root problem: taking excess pressure off the brain.
Digging deeper, one can see how CBD and other healing components of marijuana are a major threat to big pharma, as they have the potential to wipe them out if given the chance –which is one of the most popular, presumed reasons why marijuana is still illegal. Along with the other equally heavy reason: the people in society who still believe the western medical world is one that cares for their well-being more than dollar signs.