You know how they say, "You don't know you have a problem until you actually accept it"? Well, as it turns out, I have a problem. There, I have admitted it, now what do I do? Well, it also turns out; and I do not know how I let myself forget this, that family and friends have their limits too.
From past experience, family and friends will only be there for you so long as they think it is helping you. When attempts to aid you are turned down; both rudely and frequently, people around you start to shy away from you. These could be your own flesh and blood, or people you wish were your real flesh and blood, or people who just know you because of one thing or another, or even complete strangers.
Family and friends have limits too. I cannot "rest on my laurels" while the world goes on around me thinking about how everything is unfair to me. Everyone experiences hardship and suffering, how is mine any different? How is mine so unbearable? You know, I think it is all in my head, all this pain and anguish and bad/sad feelings (no, I do not suffer from depression, that has already been established). Now I just need to figure out how to fix my problem.
Unfortunately, I believe I have worn out my welcome with some members (although they will never admit it) and friends (I know these people will not admit it because I have tried confronting them already). Family and friends are people too. They have their own lives and problems to deal with, and a lot of mine have their own ways of dealing.
So, while I would like to ask for more help, I believe I have to show them that I am making an effort to better my life, and not just seem like a complete waste of space. So now that I have accepted that I have a problem, what do I do to fix it?
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