More than anything else in my alone time, I used to love to day dream about the future. I dreamed all kinds of careers for myself. I dreamed of starting a coffee shop type church. I dreamed of writing a best seller and becoming a writer. I dreamed of being an elementary teacher, a junior high teacher, or even a college professor. I dreamed of starting a non profit to help families communicate with and support each other and helped parents guide their children to adulthood.
Now as a new mom, I am realizing that while all those dreams of a career were good and exciting, even inspiring; there is really only one thing that truly matters--loving and enjoying family--raising them, appreciating my husband, growing together as a family.
Still I dream of careers. Yet I know my job at Walgreens still matters. I make a difference when I help customers, when I see them as people, when I lend a listening ear to those who need or want to talk. When I encourage customers in the two minutes I have with them. Yet I feel I have so much more to offer, but maybe I already give more than I know.
And now I'm a mom/housewife. That takes a lot of energy. Maybe just maybe I do not need to be career mom. Maybe I am already enough. I am open of course to anything. Yet, I do not have to be anything more than what I am already. I do not have to be super mom.
Admonition
What matters in life is not so much what we do in our journey, but who we are in it and our peace with ourselves in the midst of it.
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