Medicine. Is taking it so difficult when you have it in your hand? Or is it the fact you have to take it the difficulty. Either way it is a matter of life or death. Well, no, it's actually a matter of controlling your symptoms.
The symptoms from your ailment doesn't mean anything is wrong with you. It's just that there's a form of condition diagnosed or upon you as something integrated in you. This condition is potential for serious concern and it all depends on how fast in sickness or disease it grows.
Once your spirit wants to live, that is the most important step to recovery. To persevere; not give up. To hang in there. I'd say, believe in the Almighty God. And if need be, trust in the source of the provider or prescriber of medicine, which is your doctor.
Medicine may not be so bad as we have been considering it to be. Medicine may take it's toll with all it's side effects but when it comes down to it, you'll only realize that we need to be headed in the right direction and live life to the fullest. The fullest necessarily does not mean to be proactive in having a "forget the experience of the past" moment all the time, where you don't remember what made you who you are today. For the ones with God, He tells you to remember what He brought you through. This sickness may be the one He'll bring you through today!
So revive! Live like you mean it.