The Lemonade Ladies, a support group for women over forty, recently had a poetry night. It was led by Poet Dan Frisby. As the ladies read their original poems, there were tears, and hugs. Each poem moved every person in the room. When each woman read aloud her masterpiece, you could feel the life-experience, and passion in her creation. The first Lemonade Lady poem to share with the world is by Treva Stonger.
Treva is a sweet and kind soul. She worked at one of the local hospitals in Enid, Oklahoma for ten years. She is a poet and a short-story writer. Treva said the only introduction her poem needs is to say, “It tells her story.”
BY TREVA STOGNER
I WISH I HADN’T BELIEVED YOU WHEN YOU CALLED ME SWEETHEART. I WISH I KNEW HOW TO STOP LOVING YOU. I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN WE’D NEVER GET IT TOGETHER, AND WE’D HAVE TO PART. I WISH I HAD NEVER FALLEN IN LOVE AND GIVEN YOU MY HEART.
I WISH YOU WAS A HOMETOWN MAN. I WISH I DIDN’T SEE YOUR FACE EVERYWHERE I LOOK. MANY WOMEN THINK THEY WANT YOU. WHAT I KNOW ABOUT YOU THAT THEY DON’T COULD FILL A BOOK OR TWO. IF THEY KNEW THESE THINGS MOST WOULD GO FIND SOMEONE ELSE TO TRY TO GIVE THEIR HEARTS TO. I WISH I COULD LEARN HOW TO STOP LOVING YOU.
YOU MARRIED HER JUST TO HURT ME AND I DON’T KNOW WHY. WHY DID YOU WANT TO SEE BOTH OF US CRY? IT WAS ONE OF THE SHORTEST MARRIAGES IN HISTORY. WHAT WAS YOUR POINT, THAT’S A HUGE MYSTERY.
IT HURT WHEN YOU TRIED TO IGNORE ME BUT IT WAS COMIC ALLY SAD WHEN I DID IGNORE YOU, AND YOU WANTED SO BADLY TO BE WITH ME. SHE WAS WITH YOU AT THAT TIME AND I COULD SEE THAT SHE KNEW IT TOO. MADE A LARGE MESS OF THINGS, DIDN’T YOU? I WISH I KNEW HOW TO FORGET ABOUT YOU. SOMETIMES IT’S HARD TO KNOW JUST WHAT TO DO. IT’S IMPOSIBLE OR SO IT SEEMS TO VANQUISH YOU FROM MY DREAMS.
YOU KEEP TRYING TO GET MY ATTENTION AGAIN. YOU ACT LIKE YOU DID NOTHING WRONG BETWEEN NOW AND THEN. IS YOUR JEALOUSY AS STRONG AS IT’S EVER BEEN? THERE WAS NO REASON FOR IT, AND I THINK YOU KNEW THAT EVEN THEN.
I WISH I WOULD LEARN THAT I CAN GO ON WITHOUT YOU, EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS A LOT. I HOPE YOU’RE ENJOYING BEING ALONE, BECAUSE I’M NOT. HOWEVER, I DON’T WANT YOU BACK. KEEP TRAVELING ON DOWN THE TRACK. LOVE YOU THOUGH I DO, THE TRUST IS GONE, HOW WOULD I EVER GET IT BACK? I WISH I KNEW WHAT TO DO TO STOP LOVING YOU.