My husband had passed away and I was thinking how can I begin again without him? In those moments I wanted God to do something to just ease me through the rest of the day.
I remembered that during off hours the Daystar channel played continuous music with scripture flashes. It is called Reflections. So I turned there hoping it was on. And it was. As I sat crying I heard a minister say, “I’m here to tell you, you can begin again.” Wait a minute, did I hear right? Yes, I did because a song began to play of the same title, “You Can Begin Again”.
In the days following I was distracted by phone calls, arrangements, visits, paperwork, mail and emails. I was busy doing things that had taken center stage.
I missed my husband from the moment he passed. At first it was he’s gone, as if temporary like the trip he took in August. But then the finality of it hit me with an emptiness and void that is full of despair. The home that once was my sanctuary is now void of his presence and the absence is nothingness.
In anguish and grief it is odd that your concept of things change from day to day. God is my hope and help for tomorrow.
“For no one is cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love. For he does not willingly bring affliction or grief to anyone.” Lamentations 3:31-33 (NIV)