PTSD is often the result of repeated events of perceived abandonment, rejection, and violent situations. This disorder is a disease of the mind and energy systems of the body, and is brought on by being exposed repetitively to tragic events. It is also set in place by the mind's misinterpretation of these events. That is not to lessen the severity of what any have been through. We have all been in really tough places, and can understand the intensity of those times! What is being said is that, PTSD is a disorder caused by a certain brain to emotional body pattern that is formed by things we have experienced in life.
PTSD, 99.9% of the time, will throw one into an automatic defense mode when a situation arises that even remotely mimics one that has left a tragic brain-to-emotional imprint within one's energy field. Certain defenses can include a NEED for security, or having fear of the unknown. It is a total lack of trust and freedom, and often causes one to feel the need to control it's environment in one way or another.(Exhausting because it is impossible to control life!) This is often disguised as acts of “kindness and love.” Yet, what it is in actuality, is manipulation. It is saying “I need something from you, so I will treat you in whatever way I think I need to in order to keep you around so I can continue to feed off of you, and not feel my own deficit.” The experience on the other end then, says “I don't deserve much so I will just stick around and let you treat me anyway you please because those moments you do show you care are better than nothing, and thus I am fed, too.” There is either clinging or manipulation. What is underlying on both ends is a belief of either “better than” or “not good enough.” It is the manifestation of our belief that we are separate from God and from each other. All a misconception of reality. In reality, All is Equal, and All is Love, All is One.
If all is equal, then that means no single experience, person, place or thing, is greater or lesser than another. It just IS, in its own way. It is play! Therefore, there is no reason to manipulate or cling to anything! Coming from this place, we can then just enjoy and observe each person, place, thing, experience we encounter each day. Then, we can choose! We are given the freedom to decide which we would like to engage in.
Sorrow is no exception to an experience we decide to be in. Neither is Joy! However, it is my suspicion that the reason we choose these experiences that we find ourselves in, is because we have some part of ourselves telling us that “this” is what is true, and thus we will have “this” experience. For example, sorrow. Something is telling you sorrow is true, and so you begin to experience sorrow.
How do we undo this monstrosity?
It is much like turning a train around. (Or the Titanic. Ok, I stole that from a song.) Not an easy or instant task. It in fact may do more damage than good to stop the train immediately and go another direction. Think about it. A train going 100 mph, trying to make a sudden right turn. Sounds like a hot mess to me! Easy does it. Slow and steady wins the race.
To say to yourself, “OK, I get it, I have to choose joy now instead of sorrow,” and then expect it to change instantly is fooling yourself, and setting yourself up for more pain. When we find ourselves giving into sorrow again, we may now add feelings of failure and defeat to it. Expectation is killer. Now, there are always miracles, however, it will most likely take time to change our habits. The “Sorrow Train” has been heading full speed ahead in one direction for a long time. We can't expect to just be over it right away just because we “get it” intellectually that we must change our thinking. No. We must have patience with ourselves. Have loving kindness, gentleness, and respect for our own process. We must give our feelings some time to speak.
One day at a time, we can allow ourselves to introduce Joy into the process. Each time we do, the “Sorrow Train” slows down just a little more. Eventually, it will become still. From this still place, we are finally clear again. From this still place, we are returned to a place of freedom. The freedom to choose where the train is heading next.