Josh Jackson used crystal meth for the first time when he was 18 years old, living in St Louis and partying with friends from New York City. The following fall he moved to New York to attend NYU and studied acting during the height of the “Club Kid” scene when Michael Alig was still on the scene and Disco 2000 was Josh’s favorite place to get, “lost.”
Together, Josh and his boyfriend used a variety of drugs until he graduated from college and moved to California to pursue his acting career. His plan was to get sober and focus, but he’s quick to admit, “LA is not the place to come when you’re using and you want to focus on anything.”
He continued using ecstasy and “Special K” and remembers numerous occasions when he awoke outside of clubs he’d been kicked out of or under trees in strange yards. Shortly after moving to California Josh and his boyfriend broke up. Josh started using meth on a regular basis until using became a way of feeling, “normal” and he quickly lost control, was fired from several jobs and ended up penniless and homeless.
At the height of his addiction, Josh lived with a friend for several years until the couple divorced and the ex-wife took ownership of the property and evicted everyone. Jackson ended up sleeping on the floor in his drug dealer’s apartment until his sister offered to pay for him to go to rehab. Unemployed, broken and he did whatever he could to support his meth habit until Jackson’s drug dealer drove him to the bus station to send him to rehab.
When your drug dealer tells you that you need to go to rehab, you know you have a problem.”
Josh thought he went to rehab for “all the wrong reasons,” but while he stayed at Michaels House in Palm Springs, he says, “something just clicked and then I started to feel good instead of sick. The first week you sleep, the second you cry and the third week you start to feel better.”
After rehab Josh moved into The Bridge sober living on Miracle Mile in Los Angeles where he stayed for eighteen months. He relapsed twice before he completed the program, got a job and moved into his own apartment.
“After the second relapse they basically told me I either get it together or get out because there’s no more chances and I really needed to hear that,” Jackson acknowledged the fear of returning to a life on the streets and admits it was enough to keep him sober.
Three and a half years later, he’s still clean from meth, living sober and he’s recently launched his own interior design company. Josh doesn’t hesitate when asked what he attributes most to his success, “staying sober.”
Josh Jackson is a true testament to living a life of happiness when his past life was hopeless and potentially very short. The message he offers to anyone who still suffers or struggles with drugs or alcohol addiction,
I was a train wreck and I mean…seriously…my DRUG DEALER sent me to rehab. If I can do it, anyone can.”
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