Job 7:17-18 (NLT)
What are people that you should make so much of us that you should think of us so often? For you examine us every morning and test us every moment.
I think Christina Aguilera has a tremendous voice. She is a beautiful girl with great musical talent. She is the accompanying vocalist in a song called “Feel This Moment”. While I do not listen to much secular music to be perfectly honest, I do on occasion tune in at the gym. The chorus of the song repeats “I just wanna feel this moment.” It is amazing how that when the Spirit of God lives inside of us that He will use anything and everything we encounter to speak to us. While the rest of the lyrics probably should be scrubbed from my brain with a “magic” eraser, this one seems to be on a continuous loop. There are times when the Spirit of God who inhabits our body will nudge, guide and direct us in a subtle loving way. Not to mention the many times, He can be rather gut wrenching, too. I have never been a subtle person. I like it given to me straight so I can deal with it. I am a “pull-the-Band-Aid-off-fast” kinda girl. I don’t look back until it is generally too hard to do anything about it. I fight for what is right sometimes missing God’s Point in humility. I know my faults and my weaknesses as well. One in particular is detachment. If it is too much, there is a defense mechanism inside of me that builds a force field around my heart. I will block out painful memories so much so that as an adult I have had things resurface that must be dealt with. This journey with our son and his battle against cancer is one of “those” moments. Along the way, my mind, soul and body have tried to grow detached and immune from the heartache and pain in this situation. My consummate need to find good in things has come up only with one thing – God is good! All the time He is good! But if I allow the enemy to force me into a shell and do not allow myself to feel the pain, fight the fight and overcome – I lose the most important battle of all. The one where trials develop endurance, and endurance produces strong character, which in the end will make my hope of salvation confident. Hope will never disappoint me when my hope is in the Lord. He is found in each moment that we live good and bad. God designed every moment of life to be good. Sin introduced the bad. Now He is desperate to change those moment back to good for us if we choose to live each moment.
What are people that you should make so much of us that you should think of us so often? If you get to know the Lord, you will find that He does so in love always for our good, future and hope. (Jeremiah 29:11) His Goodness and Unfailing Love pursues us all the days of our life. It is by faith that a righteous person finds life. (Romans 1:17) For you examine us each morning – because His New Mercy is waiting to cover us. Like the sons of Noah covered the indiscretion of their father, the Lord wants to cover you. (Genesis 9:21-24) The Lord maintains our righteousness for us by His Grace that comes in the form of mercy each day. He tests us each moment for faith that produces more than we could ever think to ask for and allows us to maintain the keys to His Kingdom which allows us access to all of God’s Riches that Christ died for us to have. It is not to punish us for wrong doing. The world loves to look at other people’s problems and inadequacies as a means of self-worth but God wants you to realize the full potential of our life both now and forevermore.
Psalm 139:16 (NLT)
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. Many people wonder why God didn’t write a better story for their life. But there is no freedom in a story that does not allow free will. God knew what we would do but to truly love someone you must be free. “If you love something let it go, if it comes back to you then it is yours but if not, it never was.” I heard this a long time ago and believe it applies to this situation. If God had forced Adam and Eve to live in His Presence never allowing the enemy to offer them something else, would it be love or imprisonment? If my child wants to make a bad choice as an adult, if I choose to tie them up and lock them in their room for the sake of love – it is called kidnapping and a felony offense. But if they choose to listen to me and remain at home, it’s called refuge. Do you see the difference? Adam and Eve cannot be made to blame for all your problems any longer. Jesus Christ came to this world, died to set us free, and then offered us the keys to His Kingdom. We can make better choices and live the life that God intended us to have. There will still be trials and trouble along the way but we will overcome them all. We must decide to commit our life to God moment by moment rather than trying to portion out whatever is left over.
Judges 14:5-6 (NLT)
As Samson and his parents were going down to Timnah, a young lion suddenly attacked Samson near the vineyards of Timnah. At that moment the Spirit of the LORD came powerfully upon him, and he ripped the lion’s jaws apart with his bare hands. He did it as easily as if it were a young goat. But he didn’t tell his father or mother about it.
As I look over at my son sleeping in his hospital bed, I think of Samson. At 6’ 1” and some, he is my gentle giant. I wonder when Samson’s parents knew that their son was physically superior in strength. His parents knew that he was different as the Angel of the Lord confirmed. They knew that the Lord required his consecration. They committed him to God at birth. But no one knew the strength and power that God would give him until the moment that he was attacked by the lion. As we build our relationship with the Lord, we do not expect bad things to happen. I never expected to be the mother of a cancer patient. I did not consider that he would relapse five times. I was not aware that he would need a bone marrow transplant. I did not think that the insurance company would reject us so many times for all those months. But in all these times and moments, God showed His Power and Strength in our son. We did not know that this boy we drug to church every time the doors were open was getting something. You never know what path your child will take. This particular kid is different than most people. He is a mathematical genius and if you have one then you know they are wired a bit differently. They deal in the realm of probability and realism. When they are convinced of something, they have calculated every possible outcome and determined the best solution. Thankfully, he decided to believe in the Lord. His quiet confidence and secure faith in God allow our son to live through these difficult moments relying on the Lord. Does he pray all the time? Not that I am aware of. Does he constantly cry out to the Lord? No. He is confident in that his faith in God through Jesus Christ will renew his life so we just keep moving through the moments until it happens. He does not complain, grumble or gripe. Okay maybe a little when he is hungry but what man doesn’t? He is far from perfect but totally committed to the God who he serves knowing that His Grace is Sufficient and that by His Stripes – he will be healed.
Matthew 27:50-52 (NLT)
Then Jesus shouted out again, and he released his spirit. At that moment the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two, from top to bottom. The earth shook, rocks split apart, and tombs opened. The bodies of many godly men and women who had died were raised from the dead.
The most important moment of my entire life (and yours) was this one. When Jesus died on the Cross and His Spirit was released from His Body. If a person can begin to grasp the importance and significance of this instant in time, it will change the outcome of their life forever. Jesus Christ overcame death and the grave in this second. The power of sin broken forever. The thing that had kept us separated from God for so long washed away right then as the Powerful Hand of God ripped the curtain in the Temple from top to bottom. Immediately Resurrection Power was sent forth and dead were raised. The entire planet shook at the close proximity of its Creator so long a distant force now right upon it. It was a monumental moment. What is the significance to you? Friend, this means everything to you. The Power of God released on the earth to live in your heart. You now have the ability to change every outcome in your life for to the Glory of God as His Goodness and Unfailing Love finally find you. Acceptance of life as a Spirit-filled believer empowers your thoughts, words and actions as you live what you belief and God’s Plan is manifested in you and His Purpose produces prosperity in your life. It began in this moment. Death has no power over you. I sit in a room filled with pumps and monitors as lines and ports infuse poison into our son. They are killing all of his bone marrow which is essentially what keeps us alive to kill the dangerous dormant cancer cells that have been effectively hiding there. The medicine is making him very sick. His color is draining from his face. He is becoming disoriented by all the pain and nausea medication. Yet the tears running down my face in this moment are those of relief and rejoicing because “Forever He is Glorified, forever He is lifted high, forever He is risen, He is alive…He is alive.” (Forever by Kari Jobe) It doesn’t matter what they have to do to kill the cancer because the Resurrection Power of God released in that moment when He died on the Cross lives in my son today. He will live and not die to declare the works of the Lord forever…but we must live out this moment first.
Matthew 9:20-22 (NLT)
Just then a woman who had suffered for twelve years with constant bleeding came up behind him. She touched the fringe of his robe, for she thought, “If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed.” Jesus turned around, and when he saw her he said, “Daughter, be encouraged! Your faith has made you well.” And the woman was healed at that moment.
The woman with issues is not so different from all of us. Many people have problems and troubles but when the issues in our life drain us of our strength. When all other options have failed. The moment when we have nothing left to draw from but Jesus Christ is the moment that we should seek above all others. Like me, you will waste many minutes today doing things that are unnecessary, not worthwhile and unproductive. Yesterday was day one of four days of radical chemotherapy, I know that there will be rough waters up ahead. I am not afraid. I know that I have a hope that will never disappoint me but I am called to endure. The next through days will indeed break my heart all over again to see my son suffer. It is a grueling process. But to face it without fear is a welcome relief. The absence of fear allows me to feel the pain in this process, experience the emotion that is a mother’s love for her child, and the abiding guilt of wishing it were me rather than him. These are human emotions logged in my DNA but the Spirit of God inside me will prevail so today I will have peace and joy in the roughest waters because the waves and wind STILL know His Name. (Luke 8:23-24) It is not about eliminating all the struggles and strife from your life because the enemy and sin of this world will not allow it. We overcome by faith. The uncompromisingly righteous refuse to accept the pain and pressure of this moment to determine the final outcome of their life because they believe. The woman suffered from the symptoms of her issues for twelve long years. How long have you been suffering? Is it time to say, “If I can just touch his robe, I will be healed of _______________ or I will be delivered of _______________?” Your faith is this moment will make you well. It will be well with your soul. As your soul prospers, so will you.
I Corinthians 15:51-53 (NLT)
But let me reveal to you a wonderful secret. We will not all die, but we will all be transformed! It will happen in a moment, in the blink of an eye, when the last trumpet is blown. For when the trumpet sounds, those who have died will be raised to live forever. And we who are living will also be transformed. For our dying bodies must be transformed into bodies that will never die; our mortal bodies must be transformed into immortal bodies.
The Spirit of the Lord will transform you in each moment of your life committed to Jesus Christ. If you want it, you got it. He is working diligently to increase your faith, promote confident hope and belief in eternal life. You will never know the true potential of God’s Love outside of trusting Him, and developing a deep abiding relationship with your Heavenly Father. Unfortunately there are many distractions in this world and many methods of detaching from the pain of suffering (emotionally and physically) some acceptable and others not so much. I challenge you today not to try to escape the pain in this moment but embrace the once who turns our mourning into dancing. He gives us beauty for ashes. There will be suffering and unavoidable pain. The good news is that He is alive. His Spirit will transform our life ravaged by sin and darkness into the Perfect Plan of God (Psalm 138:8). Not a single tear will be wasted, He is collecting them all. “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.” (Psalm 56:8) It just doesn’t seem to me that the Lord God would go to all that trouble if He did not intend to redeem them or use them in our transformation process. The Good News today no the Great News is that there is day coming when cancer will no longer attack our loved ones. A place in time and space when this world and all its sin and darkness washed away in the past. We will be with Jesus completely transformed into new immortal bodies as eternal beings to live in the Presence of our Lord forever and ever. I choose to feel this moment if the Lord promises to transform me into someone who can live in that place.
2 Corinthians 7:10 (NLT)
For the kind of sorrow God wants us to experience leads us away from sin and results in salvation. There’s no regret for that kind of sorrow. But worldly sorrow, which lacks repentance, results in spiritual death.
Ecclesiastes 7:3 (NLT) Sorrow is better than laughter for sadness has a refining influence on us.
Isaiah 53:3-5 (NLT)
He was despised and rejected—a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way. He was despised, and we did not care. Yet it was our weaknesses he carried; it was our sorrows that weighed him down. And we thought his troubles were a punishment from God, a punishment for his own sins! But he was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed.
Revelation 21:3-7 (NLT)
I heard a loud shout from the throne, saying, “Look, God’s home is now among his people! He will live with them, and they will be his people. God himself will be with them. He will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever.” And the one sitting on the throne said, “Look, I am making everything new!” And then he said to me, “Write this down, for what I tell you is trustworthy and true.” And he also said, “It is finished! I am the Alpha and the Omega—the Beginning and the End. To all who are thirsty I will give freely from the springs of the water of life. All who are victorious will inherit all these blessings, and I will be their God, and they will be my children.