How much of your life has been spent as if yellowed shades were drawn in a cut rate hotel room with a do not disturb sign hanging from the door knob? To ponder such an important question, to be sure, brings an illuminating insight, not necessarily appreciated until consciously recognized, but not while holding a ‘passing fancy’ flippant attitude of nonchalant concern. Long awaited release arrives only after the slit, which has formed from unbalanced drapes, offers a hint of brightness to the dreary room of denial and pretense. Too many days are dissipated in unexpressed anger, masked as benevolent concern. Until you come to grips with the gnawing unsettling disturbance, in your chest, you will, in no way, be able to embrace the fullness of unfulfilled potential in your life
Raw adventure, insatiable variety, fun-loving spontaneity, and serendipitous enjoyment: words which symbolize an alien state of mind, for you, at present are but a numbing reminder of how easily things which were so much a part of your life have slipped into another phase which does not interest you in the least. You are aware of how much you have neglected in your own self; since you are a master at bringing to life so many activities which bring unbounded humor and infectious joy to many have long since vacated the premises. In other words, you have become an unbearable bore to yourself and others.
You know how to create unending comedy in all of your endeavors but have forsaken the practice for a duller, somber (responsible) serious nature which you feel is more appropriate and acceptable. You need to be more committed, you say and much more dependable, in order to be happy. But, pray tell me, “What has happened to your contented spirit?” Where is your vivaciousness and vitality? By working so hard to achieve a specific way of producing certain results, you have deposited yourself in a sealed bank vault where there seems to be no possible method of withdrawal.
How long will you continue this ludicrous charade? How long will you persist in running ram shod over the effervescent passion which lies buried in your soul? You must address the sullen bleakness which has enveloped your life-giving naturalness. Your face is drawn with an unmistakable taut chagrin. Gaze deeply into the mirror without the callous indifference of disregard displayed. Pause and stare into your eyes which will not lie even when you spend countless hours trying to convince the source; you are doing exactly what you want to do.
You possess an incredible resilient secret disclosed to you, alone. To occupy and reap the extraordinary benefits of your state of existence requires that you show up; front and center. In other words, “Be Where Your Feet Are!” Stop with the whining, pining, criticizing, condemning, and incessant complaining. The past is gone. Dead. Buried. You simply must turn it loose; it has certainly turned you loose. And, just as imperative, you must cease immediately, making elaborate plans for the future. What future? Now is all you have. The future unfolds its stupendous glory in each second you breathe. But, because you are neither here nor there, you miss the parade you are supposed to lead.
Are you the least bit invested in you? Or, have you sold out to the highest bidder simply because you are so disgusted and angry believing life has robbed or cheated you in some way. Bull shit. You have never been cheated out of anything or anyone. Your ideas are distorted and your thoughts out of touch with the present. Who wants to eat 6 week old stale bread? No one. And, who wants to try to live a life not conducive with the seasons at hand? Have you ever tried to listen to a band when they are out of sync? Not pleasant at all. You can experience a vibrantly, satisfying, pleasurable, and productive life IF you are a mind to show up for it; exactly and precisely as it unfolds: here. NOW.
Are you willing for many people to depend upon you? I’m not talking about your being responsible for their happiness and welfare. I am referring to them depending upon you to fill the slot of which only you can inhabit. Your world will never work properly until your take your rightful position. More than you realize, the omnificent task of placing your shoulders to the ploughshare awaits your arrival. Cut through the fog of self-indulgence to unleashed freedom.
Your immeasurable gift shines through the unambiguous gleam in your eyes. You are convincing before you say anything. You KNOW that! Admit it, when acknowledged, you must declare, that your life has been relatively easy for you. That’s because you don’t really view obstacles as barriers. You see them as the sideline activity of creative distraction which has formulated your game. Many people are not so fortunate to be able to see the big picture while participating in it consciously. That’s what makes it hard for them to throw back the shades in order to let the dance of miraculous light in. You, on the other hand, are so dog-gone lucky to know what the real friggin’ deal is.