The recently premiered documentary "Life Is But A Dream" was a struggle for Beyonce. Speaking out Saturday, the "Halo" singer said it was a project that she had been preparing for, for years, but it just didn't feel right until her daughter, Blue Ivy, was born. On top of that, she says it was a struggle to edit the project, including personal videos about her relationships, including that of her father, Mathew Knowles.
"I battled with the edit. In the end, I just jumped and I said I am no different than any (other) woman. I felt like the story just connects the dots in my life and I feel like it was time for me to share my story and hopefully connect with people, even with people that are not necessarily fans of my music. It's just an inspiring story and I felt it was time," Beyonce shared with "Oprah's Next Chapter" Saturday.
While she now feels stronger and happy to have finally shared her experiences, including a family vacation with her daughter and husband, Beyonce says it wasn't easy choosing what to actually put in the film and what should be edited.
"I started on it years before I knew I was pregnant or having a baby, but I did not put it out because my story had not been complete. Once I became pregnant and even after I was pregnant, I still didn't know why. I said life is but a dream three years before. There were so many connections in the film, that was my life, that I didn't understand until I gave birth," Beyonce shared. "Everything just completely connected. I said I am who I am. I now have my story to tell. I am Beyonce."
That said, one of Beyonce's toughest moments on camera came with discussing her father, Mathew Knowles. As widely reported in 2011, she fired him and appointed new management. For years he had been not only a father, but a manager and counselor in her career from Destiny's Child forward.
"It was difficult and we both knew it was time, maybe a few years before. I love my father so much and he has taught me so many things. So it was something that was hard. I don't know what else to say. But I can say that this documentary really helped me. For one, just editing and really seeing our dynamics and healing our relationship as father and daughter. This documentary healed me from so many things as scary as it is to know that the whole world is going to see some of my private thoughts," an honest Beyonce shared. "I feel so much stronger and brave. I've healed so much and I am a stronger person because of it."
As seen Saturday night, "Life Is But A Dream" premiered on HBO. Did you see the documentary and were you left inspired by Beyonce's story?
In related news, an encore of "Oprah's Next Chapter," featuring Beyonce, will air Sunday, Feb. 17 at 9 p.m. on OWN.