In watching Beyoncé speak about God in her "Life is But a Dream" HBO special Saturday night, this Christian TV Examiner almost wanted to apologize for the questions I've had about her Christianity over the past few years.
"God is real and God lives inside of me and inside of all of us and it doesn't matter where I am, I know that and I feel it," Beyoncé said in this video of the ending segment that features her with her daughter, Blue Ivy.
Okay, I might not believe that God lives inside every one of us -- that sounds a little New Age-y to me -- but I do believe what I read this morning that Jesus told his followers in John 6:37:
All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.
And there is hopefully progress from the standpoint I saw three years ago, when I wrote "Beyonce's Christian views called into question, along with husband Jay-Z, the 'Jehovah' god of rap," an article that still gets plenty of hits to this day from folks who ask search engines, "Is Beyoncé a Christian?" and type in things related to the couple and the Illuminati.
That's up to God alone to know, and like He changed this sinner writing these words into a saint, it looks like He's continually moving in the singer's life as well.
"My baby was born out of a conflict in my life," she stages about motherhood and marriage. "There's no drumroll or trumpet that goes off when you've made the biggest decision in your life."
But when talk turned to Beyoncé's mother's prayers and those of her grandmother, she got emotional and cried.
"I don't know why I'm so fortune and so blessed," she said. "I know my mom always told me that my grandmother was in the church lighting candles for her and I am a result of my grandmother's prayers and my mother prays for me all the time and I pray for my mother all the time."
The superstar went on to describe -- in between beautiful takes of soul-bearing and sinister tail shaking -- how the Lord's presence felt to her.
"Like right now I'm hot -- it's a tingling. It's love. I feel it when I look at my child, I feel it when I look at my husband. It's God," she said.
"Everything is there for a reason and when you really pay attention it's so clear what the next step is. As we grow, the dots get connected and we eventually become what we're supposed to be."