AM I STILL ANGRY?
Whether you have experienced severe trauma or minor hurt feelings, your emotional wellness is important to God. Most of us have heard that we should stand "still" and see the salvation of the LORD when a battle is raging in life. What is sometimes overlooked is the condition of the heart whilst one is standing. Standing still does not mean attempting to stand on the promises of God while STILL hanging on to negative emotions. Consider the weight of stones in a barrel. How heavy would you imagine are the stones of hatred in a heart cart? Weight cannot always be put on a bathroom scale - though it can lead to a heart attack in more ways than one.
The feeling of anger can be so consuming, that the heart confuses revenge with reparation. Just because one event precedes a second event, does not mean that the second event is a direct result of the immediately preceding event. And though many options can follow any one event (that is, you can choose how to respond), the operative word is choice.
When the Word says, bless and curse not (Romans 12:14), it is not to undermine the fact that someone hurt you and perhaps so without cause. It is not to belittle any pain that you have experienced. It is not a statement of nonchalance, asking you to take an action (forgiveness) without knowledge of what it was that incited your intense emotion (since God knows exactly who you are and what you have experienced). It is not to excuse the evil that has been done or its wicked merchant and instead punish you with memory. It is to protect you. We do not know the day or the hour when the wicked may find that place of repentance – to which we have also come; and there be received with a contrite heart (and as such shall be unworthy of the curse of our lips (for which we will reap the Word if we do not repent - and there we will have given power over us that should not be relinquished) though we may still be hurting.
It is easy to paint a picture of a God who is forgiving. It can be difficult to see people who have hurt us as worthy of forgiveness. It can make some uneasy to think that the forgiven are the ones who personally wronged them. We forget that God specializes in reconstruction. Consider Moses who murdered a man before he ever parted the Red Sea with God's power. God took Moses into a wilderness training camp - and when Moses emerged, he was a different man.
When it gets personal, that is where the nerves are most exposed. God never said, “Do not have an emotion about anything.” Rather, He instructs that even in anger, we should not add sin to our "choices" of response (Ephesians 4:26). God in His infinite vision is able to see beyond the actions that we would take. He knows what the outcome would be, though the mind in an angry cloud sees only the current moment of fog.
Anger is emotional baggage, which attracts the carrier to its kin elements of hatred and vengeance. Emotional baggage is easily attributed to what someone else has said, or what someone else has done. The concept of letting go, however, is the other side of when things get personal. When situations get personal, they affect the spirit within you. You do not have to allow an emotional affect to become a spiritually negative infection. What most people know about an infection, reads something like a medical dictionary...
Infection: /in·fec·tion/ (-fek´shun). 1. The invasion and multiplication of microorganisms such as bacteria, viruses, and parasites that are not normally present within the body...[2.] An infection may remain localized, or it may spread through the blood or lymphatic vessels to become systemic (bodywide). 3. Microorganisms that live naturally in the body are not considered infections. For example, bacteria that normally live within the mouth and intestine are not infections (Medicine.Net).
Does that sound familiar?
A perpetual anger breeds more situations to disturb the path to emotional well-being. When anger becomes infectious, it infiltrates our thinking, behavior, and something that may not have been considered - our future. Here is what was removed from the above definition and is still often overlooked:
2. An infection may cause no symptoms and be subclinical, or it may cause symptoms and be clinically apparent.
Just because a negative emotion comes to disrupt your emotional health, does not mean that you have to put out the welcome mat. To overcome evil with good is within your power when you take your emotional health personally. It is not about what someone else says or does. It is based on your communication with your Master healer. God wants you to have spiritual healing which includes emotional well-being. Anger is an influence - something that carries a potential to do something in your life. YOU can cause anger to be a malignant (synonyms: evil, malevolent, virulent or infectious, hateful, spiteful, malicious, wicked...) cancer in your life; or you can cause anger to be benign (benevolent, favorable, gentle, mild, beneficial, congenial, good, gracious) and then cease to exist as a negative influence.
How can one chemical produce two different reactions? The litmus test depends on what you mix the base with. Anger becomes more acidic when you add it to itself. One may intend to pour it out on others; and yet it also destroys the container. Anger becomes diluted and its negative power is transmuted when you add living water - which is powerful for good both when drank and when poured.
Read Psalm 30:5. If pain and sorrow still exist after anger is transmuted for good, God has a plan for that too. Be healed and travel light.