People like to assume they are charming. They comb their hair, brush their teeth and smile with those beautiful teeth in hopes that it will charm the world to their favor. It doesn't work for everyone, it doesn't work for me.
Naked; that's the only word I can use to describe the feeling. You know, that feeling of standing in front of someone begging for an opportunity to show your worth. In today's America, we are fighting for that everyday. In my life today, it's every hour.
I am horrible at interviews. I know the answer to every question before they even ask it. But, when those words come spilling out, I lose all control over my awesome. I stutter, I chew my lip, I squeeze my eyes shut after the last word tumbles out like a sleep deprived toddler.
No; that's always the answer. No matter how many books of success I have tucked under my arm, or spread sheets that show my work ethic - it's always no. No amount of references will help that right person look at my book and give me a chance.
So I left the shop with my book and I pulled my sleeve over my arm and I walked away. This time I didn't take a card. I didn't take a number or leave mine. A no is a no, after all.
Side note: If you are an employer and you call upon someone for an interview and they happily show up and dance for you.. give them feedback. Email them to tell them they were not selected, tell them over the phone. But, don't leave it to silence.