For weeks, fans have been wondering what happened to “16 and Pregnant” star Nikkole Paulun’s baby. She was pregnant with a son (who she had planned to name Ashton) and shared photos of her bump all summer long. One day, the pictures abruptly stopped and new photos showing Nikkole sans baby bump popped up on the web. As can be imagined, speculation set in and some accused the former reality show star of faking the entire thing! On August 27, though, she finally spoke out about what really happened to her baby boy.
In an interview with Radar Online, Nikkole Paulun revealed that she had actually given birth to her son at the end of July, but that he was stillborn. Heartbroken, she decided against learning what had caused him to die so suddenly. However, the hospital did a drug test to ensure that Nikkole Paulun didn’t take any illegal substances to cause the death of the unborn baby and she says all the tests came back negative.
The former “16 and Pregnant” star talked about her feelings saying, “I cried. I was like in shock. I just couldn’t understand why and I was confused. I didn’t think that was actually going to happen. I didn’t want to tell anybody. I fought so hard to keep him that I was just ashamed and embarrassed.”
According to Nikkole, she didn’t explain the situation to her three-year-old son, Lyle, who knew he would soon be a big brother. Instead, they simply told the boy that his brother “went to heaven.”
To cope with the loss, Nikkole Paulun had the baby cremated and keeps his ashes in a teddy bear saying. “When I pray, I’ll hold the teddy bear.”
Unfortunately, there are still a lot of people who think Nikkole Paulun faked the pregnancy and the subsequent stillbirth in order to earn a big payday and some notoriety. Many cite the fact that she was out partying just days after the stillbirth and some are even alleging that she wore a fake pregnancy stomach to make people believe she was pregnant.
Everyone deals with grief differently and perhaps going out and partying was the “16 and Pregnant” star’s way of dealing the loss. It is easy to forget that Nikkole Paulun is still very young and would likely have a hard time dealing with a situation that even a thirty-year-old woman would have a hard time coping with.
© Corrina Jean